The process of making the collage connects me to another world, the world of the subconscious, impressions, colours and fun. The instructions from Michelle made me uncomfortable, the same as last month. So indeed just the right place to depart from, being uncertain, not knowing and without expectations. I had not idea what would come out of this. The theme for this month is Aquarius:
‘I am the One who innovates, rebels, invents, my body electric, electrifies (anything blue), Quantum Physics, aloofness, I stand up- this sign rules the ankles. This month we are working with the energies of the 11th House doorway, Aquarius and Uranus-the Innovator. The community you serve through your unique gifts and talents. What is the original thought you have come to share? What is your soul longing to express? This is the SoulCollage card that reflects your uniqueness. It may be related to a future self that you are birthing.’
Aquarius occupies the second house in my birth chart, in the explanation of the New Moon journal it is facing the issues of self esteem and self worth, my relationship to abundance, money and things. Also tools for survival and what I have to give. There are no planets here. And to be honest all the issues of the second house I confront in my life this month. Self esteem has known better times, abundance has moved out of my live and poverty consciousness walked in. The other air houses that could come to the rescue, Gemini and Libra, seem far away, the second house is like a void without a voice. However Gemini contains the North Node and planet Jupiter, and can come to the rescue.
Gemini in the 6th house could give voice to my uniqueness in the area of work. I am indeed looking for a job to stop thinking a little bit. Too much time makes my ME very boring! Uranus and being an individual comes together with my transformation, with surrender. Uranus and Pluto are sooooooo close together in the birth chart.
The collage shows Aquarius who gives me thoughts all drifting into thin air. There is not a lot of coherence, just ideas and nice ones too. I tend to get enthusiastic easily, but then I loose focus pretty quick and leave the original idea that I had behind. Fulfillment of goals seems a bridge too far, without the focus. This all reminds me of the post last week on this blog called: ‘It’s raining, it’s pouring my life seems so boring’. How about using this month to connect to uniqueness again? Sounds too good to be true.
“I am unique.
I serve through my original gifts and talents.
I decree they manifest now.”