A conversation tonight with my friend. About reports that I will promise to write for clients when what I really want is to sit down and discuss a horoscope.
We concluded that I have a hidden agenda. Let me explain. When I see a horoscope for the first time I have a strong opinion on it. Then I will have a go on the mac and write a report. Using nice words and in fact diluting a little the strong opinion. I edit more words out and begin to think too much about how ridiculous it is to say what I say. A perfectionist attitude does the rest.
Also “a conversation with my mac” is easy, conversation with a client is more of a challenge. What if they do not like me when I say what I see there in the symbols? Rather than to stick to what I see in the symbols I go into fear of rejection. That I am not loved when I give my opinion.
The solution is to open my mouth to spit it out and get it over and done with? Just like on the weblog, say it when I feel like saying it. To be me is also about opening my mouth, stay true to myself. To dare to let go of the fear and let the higher self be my guide.
Interesting point here: after the conversation, feeling better, an email arrived. A friend of a friend asks for a written report!!!!