On the internet I came across the famous line said by Obi-Wan Kenobi (Alec Guinness) in Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope: “The Force is what gives a Jedi his power. It’s an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us, and penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together.”
It makes me smile and happy to be able to be one with the force again. To realize that when change is happening it is just the other side of the coin. It is not that the force is not with me anymore. It is not that I am lonely, not lovable, bad, guilty or whatever. I was in the last couple of months no longer aware of the force working through me as in all living things. Well sometimes I did but I fell into the black hole again.
The force is with me and you and everyone always. How can it not be? I can make the choice to have it present in my life. Or be stubborn and refuse it. My choice will be to have it in my life, in good and so called bad times when change is knocking on my door.
So, YES ! Today is a good news post by me. Today is the second day that I am out of my black hole. I made it through. I suddenly notice how the buckets lined up in the hallway remain empty. I grieved for by gone days. For what happened and did not happen, for what I did and did not do, for what I said and did not say.
In the end I begin to see that I resist change. The change that is inevitable in life and in living. When I resist change, that is when my life starts to look ugly and I can no longer accept what is. Everything seemed to fall apart. These days I gave up resistance, slowly I come to accept change again, a little bit more each day.
May the force be with you too.